Her brother molested her. She's finding freedom

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Wow. I just received an email from my pastor asking me to share my testimony at church and decided I needed to come here for some support first before putting it together.

You see....I, too, was molested by my older brother (5 years older). For years I stuffed that inside, seeking approval and acting out in inappropriate ways totally blocking those memories out. Until one day, at age 28 I was smacked hard with the memories and nearly lost it.

My marriage ended because my husband did not know how to handle it. My mother denied it then cried and said she tried everything to stop it. My dad, who left and moved to another state when I was 5, told me to "just get over it".

The hurt never stopped and was an open wound for many years. UNTIL I FINALLY LET GOD IN. He took it. He worked it. He spoke truth to me when all I ever knew were lies. Today, my brother and I do not have a relationship. I see him at Easter and Thanksgiving but we barely speak. Mostly because I choose not to speak to him...I'm afraid of what I might say. I see no need to talk to him about it really. Won't change anything and the hurt will most likely just be the same old thing. SO....I gave it to God.

He has not directed me to talk to my brother about it and until he does, I won't. Every day is a struggle....a battle of self-esteem, self worth and reminding myself that God has a plan for my life. He has turned my shame into my STORY. He can and will do the same for you if you let him. GOD BLESS YOU. You are NOT alone.