I thought this was an interesting/sad secret. Has anyone else gone through this? Anonymous wrote it in response to this post: http://blog.myfamilysecrets.org/2010/04/shes-attracted-to-women.html
Reading this was like reading a page from my own diary. Several times I had to stop and reassure myself that I hadn't written it myself and forgotten. I too have very vague memories of sexual inappropriateness and a strained relationship with my mother. I confided in my sister once that I wondered if my mother molested me and asked if she had ever experienced anything like that. She said no and then proceeded to tell all of our immediate and extended family that my mother molested me. I was in the early stages of therapy and just starting to work out these images in my head and the lid was blown completely off. I want to be close to my mother, but all of my life I've kept her at a distance emotionally, not sure why. Her response has always been to suffocate me with emotions and affection. It makes me feel stalked and hunted. I cannot stand for her to touch me. It just feels like too much, like she is forcing herself on me and my life. I always wonder if I feel this way because she molested me when I was a little girl. I don't have any solid memories of that, but I know that the way I recoil from her is not normal. I wish I could meet you. We are living parallel lives.
Tuesday
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